running.

about two minutes ago, i came to the realisation that though i feel as though i'll never fit in anywhere, i am who i am for a reason, and i should really just embrace it.

i'm not talking about the external, but the things that really matter. anyone who knows me well, knows that i'll never stop complaining about the way i look, and i have my reasons for that, but when i look past everything, and look at who i really am, i'm going to force myself to be content.

one thing i'm not is compassionate, however i make up for this in humour, because i'll try to make light of a situation in doing so.

i'm not hardworking, and i lack in motivation a lot of the time, however i am a perfectionist. 

i'm not loud, but i'm definitely not quiet.

i'm not obnoxious, but i have a decent level of confidence.

i'm a realist, not a pessimist. 

i'm artistic, not inventive.

i'm a lover, though not romantic.

i'm sarcastic, not a bitch.

i'm not a liar, but i'm not going to hurt you.

i'm a christian, not religious.

i don't fit in, but someday i will.

i've got one year left before everything i've waited for begins. the sooner i accept these things, the sooner i'll find home. i tell you what, i love knowing i was made me for a reason. most of the time.

for some reason, the word 'running' really motivates me.