thirty one.

nye. 

perhaps one of my favourite days of the year, despite it being the last. i suppose i love it for a number of reasons. the people around you are always people you actually want to be with. there seems to be an endless supply of excellent beverages. you know everyone is sending out 'happy new year!' texts because your network is behaving like it has to climb everest in five minutes, and it annoys you, but reminds you everyone has someone to love. personally, its one of my best friends birthdays :D there are fireworks around the city, and there are fireworks on your tv screen. every year you expect it to get better, but always end up saying 'nah, last years were cooler.'. the ten second count down, followed by the explosion of arms being thrown up into the air and a unanimous shout of those famous words. then the hugs, and the punches on the arm, even though thats not really new years eve.

i just love new years, and the excitement that comes with it. yay!

HAPPY NEW YEAR :D

oh and to you gen, happy birthday :)

no more turning away.

i need to get out, i think. i should help somehow.

amazing. good one pink floyd.

syndicate.

'halfway around the world, lies the one thing that you want..'

..or in my case, the majority of what i want.

adventureexperiencefriendslovegodachangeofscenery

thats all i want.

my favourite five.

YEAH BABY.

(in no particular order, because i can never say how i really feel face to face)

these people are great:

• one beautiful girl who i love to absolute pieces. puts up with me. was there for me at my lowest point. is still here at my highest. acts as immaturely as me, and still loves llama jokes. has a cute fashion sense, and is always up for a little jungle madness ;) life wouldn't be the same without her. though i usually spend my time telling her how stupid she is (which she's not, haha), i really do love her, and i hope she knows that. she is a truly remarkable person.
• one incredibly talented, caring, and pretty lady who understands my mind like her own (for the majority of the time, haha). she's incredibly caring and empathetic, and has come such a long way in the last few months, she probably doesn't realise just how proud i am ;) i love her. i always have, shes always been there for me, and what more could i ask for in such a wonderful person?
• one amazing boy with the imagination and the intelligence higher than most i've met. caring when its due, never shy to share his true opinions, and always able to make me laugh. whenever i'm down on myself, hes always quick to shut me up, and for his faithfulness to me, i'm pretty greatful :)
• one lovely, and very tall man who has stuck by me despite my occasional bitchy outbursts and opinionated comments. someone who's open, strong, hilarious, intelligent, and is always up for a gossip, cause really, he's a big girl :P he's truly amazing, and despite our differences, i couldn't ask for a better friend.
• one guy who's changed me and helped me grow as a person in ways he probably hasn't realised. someone who's seen me looking absolutely disgusting and hasn't paid me out, but will tell me i look pretty when i think i look like shit, hah. hes funny, incredibly understanding, patient, amazingly gifted and caring. i love him :D

these five people have impacted me greatly. i actually can't imagine life without them. its funny how you end up being so close with the people you never thought you would've. but i'm damn happy i know them.

see guys. i'm not as insensitive as i appear ;D x

...but really, i love you.

he even speaks through the internet. crazy.

no joke. i just hit 'next blog' a total of 36 times and came across 36 Christ-Centred blogs. 

naturally, being a christian and all, I can't help but believe this is some sort of indicator to me from God, saying i should probably start complaining less on my blog, and maybe focussing more on my beliefs.

i actually have no idea. i just couldn't believe what i was seeing. far out. haha.

you walk with me through fire.

My God has just fixed me.

I can sense a long, spiritual journey commencing, but I'm sure it will all be worth it.

Its amazing what prayer and sticking it out through the rough can achieve. 

Though right now I may feel a little weak, I know He's strong.

Its time to let go, stop pretending, and rely on His grace.

I'm actually so amazed by what has just taken place in my spirit. 

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU

thats right.

I GOT MY FECKING BONES BACK. 

FECK YEAH.

in other news. its december, the best month of the year.

zero school. maximum happiness.

I'M SO EXCITED.

christmas eve. christmas. new years eve.

i don't even care that its raining on the first day of summer. its the closest we'll get to a white christmas.

EEP! what could be better?!?!