i have goals. werd.

i don't really know how to say what i'm thinking of at the moment, so i'll start of with a question that will probably fuel some sort of half readable blog entry.

what is it that makes us want to do the things we do? not the stupid things like, wanting to sit in a particular spot or to hear a particular tune, but the things that are a big deal. like life goals, things we want to achieve.

it seems often what people want is built in their dna. sometimes its because it runs in the family, because of influence at a young age or something similar, but when it comes out of nowhere? i don't know.


a friend of mine was telling me earlier about how he would be willing to drop his dreams if something else came his way. something big that would impact the world. i don't know how willing i'd be to do this, and i don't know if that's selfish of me. as i mentioned in a previous blog, i'm a christian. so obviously i believe that God has a major part in telling us where to go and what to do, whether you're religious or not. i often wonder if its possible for me to change his plan with my actions, or if hes planned my life and thats that. i could go further into this point, but i won't because the fact is, i'm lazy. haha. 


but where do goals/dreams come from? how do we realise them? i know i want to do something with music. i want to lead worship but i need another job too, obviously this won't provide a steady income for me. i was thinking about being a music teacher, i'd also love to be in a band, but i don't know that that will happen. the whole shebang's pretty interesting to me. interesting that no one in my family is musical except me and my brother. interesting that i'm the only religious person. 


i actually have no idea what point i'm trying to get across right now. i'm too tired. i guess my main point is:

i want to achieve something and be remembered when i'm gone. something big. lets see what happens huh.